I'm More Fun When I Drink

Tonight we went to a family members home for dinner. I typically would have joined in with one our host for a glass, or 4, of wine. I didn't and I am pretty sure that no one else thinks this, but I feel like I am more fun when I am drinking. At least, I have more fun when I drink. There, I said it and it was hard to admit but I really think that alcohol was affecting me more than I thought. It's not that I am not having a good time at these functions but I just know that I laughed more and was a little less serious when I was drinking. I was just...well....more fun. If I can stick this no drinking thing out for a whole year, I hope I still have friends when it is all over with. Maybe, no one will even like me. They may think that I am boring. The truth is, maybe I wasn't more fun at all. Maybe, it was just MY perception of me. Isn't it interesting? I just don't even know.

I do know that I am a control freak and I love the control that not drinking is giving me. I can drive whenever I want, I don't fall asleep at 8:00 p.m. blaming it on getting up early when possibly it was because I started drinking wine at 5:00 p.m, and I don't have to worry that something I said was wrong because I had consumed one too many glasses of wine. If I offend someone, it's just me, not the alcohol.

Anyway, these are some things I have noticed.
Cheers!